, , , All Fucked Up.
Sigh . . . .
It just never fucking ends. Maybe I’m supposed to drop blogging. [More likely, I’m supposed to get the hell out of this place. Either way, someone’s obviously trying to tell me something.]
So this morning, my laptop keyboard goes all clusterfuck. Doesn’t appear fixable. Need new laptop.
Go to bank site to check accounts; discover that my savings has been wiped out in the last hour by a certain government agency that insists I owe them more money from two years ago than I actually do. [If I were, say, a multibillion-dollar corporation that gave $$ to the GOP, and owed hundreds of billions, they’d let me off with less than a 1% penalty, but nooooo - I’m just a dirty fucking hippie who thinks Dear Leader is a war criminal, so . . . .]
Phone rings a few minutes ago. It’s my mother, announcing that she’s staying at the nursing home tonight because she thinks my father may not last through the night. [This leaves me very conflicted for lots of reasons I shouldn’t detail here, at least not at the moment.]
So does this qualify as my three bad things? For the next year, say?
I was going to do some blogging tonight; not sure I can deal with it after all. For now, I’m going to go find a wall and bang my head against it for an hour - or ten. It’ll be just as effective as anything else I could possibly do, obviously.

You don’t know me, but I love your blog and wanted to offer you a word of encouragement: Don’t stop blogging! I know you once said that you were planning to post less here and try to concentrate more on another blog that you had in mind—debwe. I’ve been keenly anticipating your new blog but also love this one. Please don’t give it up entirely. I’m sure things will get better soon. I will pray so.
Comment by tsisageya — July 20, IST @ 15:2031 PM
rational animal, i’m very upset to hear such a string of…when it rains it pours, eh?
much love, rational animal. always. erizzle
Comment by erizzle — July 21, IST @ 09:2109 AM
Okay, you two made me cry. [In a good way, I mean.] Thank you both, SOOOO much.
Tsisageya: Well, I may not have known you before, but I do now! Thanks for coming by. It’s amazing to me what blogging does We may never know whose lives we touch, either for good of for ill, by what we write. Thank you so much for telling me - it gives me an added incentive to get my ass back on the horse, so to speak. I’m driving to my other home tomorrow for a few days; on Wednesday I’m planning on getting this site caught up, and launching Debwe - if the tech gremlins don’t screw me and teh hamsters don’t go on strike. Looking forward to seeing you there, too! (BTW, have you got a blog? If so, let me know so I can get you on the blogroll.)
erizzle: As always, my dear, thank you. I’ve been so lousy at maintaining this site lately, I’m amazed that you keep coming back. But I promise to do better. The last month, as horrible as it was, has turned out to be incredibly cathartic: A lot of baggage is gone; some things are now out of my hands, but ironically are thus getting taking care of; I have a new client contract in the works, so my finances will be looking up; and I have more time - and more psychological resources - at my disposal for writing/blogging. And friends like you to remind me what matters. Thank you.
Comment by Administrator — July 23, IST @ 18:2351 PM
Okay, you two made me cry. [In a good way, I mean.] Thank you both, SOOOO much.
Tsisageya: Well, I may not have known you before, but I do now! Thanks for coming by. It’s amazing to me what blogging does We may never know whose lives we touch, either for good of for ill, by what we write. Thank you so much for telling me - it gives me an added incentive to get my ass back on the horse, so to speak. I’m driving to my other home tomorrow for a few days; on Wednesday I’m planning on getting this site caught up, and launching Debwe - if the tech gremlins don’t screw me and teh hamsters don’t go on strike. Looking forward to seeing you there, too! (BTW, have you got a blog? If so, let me know so I can get you on the blogroll.)
erizzle: As always, my dear, thank you. I’ve been so lousy at maintaining this site lately, I’m amazed that you keep coming back. But I promise to do better. The last month, as horrible as it was, has turned out to be incredibly cathartic: A lot of baggage is gone; some things are now out of my hands, but ironically are thus getting taking care of; I have a new client contract in the works, so my finances will be looking up; and I have more time - and more psychological resources - at my disposal for writing/blogging. And friends like you to remind me what matters. Thank you.
Comment by Administrator — July 23, IST @ 18:2320 PM
Terrific blog. And yes, Dear Leader is a fracking war criminal.
Comment by Rick — August 15, IST @ 16:1549 PM
Welcome, Rick! Glad to have you.
I visited your blog last night; I’ll get you - and a whole long list of other people - blogrolled this weekend.
Cheers!
Comment by Administrator — August 16, IST @ 06:1642 AM